that was IF she ever would speak to me again. I wanted to tell her and everyone that Scott had arranged for me to be with the coach, but as big an ass as I now understood Scott was, I did not believe he would have set me up with the coach if he thought he would beat and rape me. He did think I was willing I led him to believe that so it was my fault too. "That medicine was really messing with my mind mom." I said. "I’m sorry," she said and I knew she felt guilty for agreeing